This is what you were supposed to get 2 nights ago

Now before you read, let me tell you that (obviously) its part of the poem, not the whole thing, your going to have to wait for it :] hehehe arent i mean? Also its a pretty simple poem, but like always there are things hidden in it. Hope you like it.

Hi baby
How are you today?
Are you feeling okay?
I hope you feel great everyday.
I’m writing this for you
Feeling like I always do
So when you read this cutie
Just know that I feel this for you
No matter what is happening
Read this on days you feel alone
Read this on days we don’t have phones
Think of us while laying down
That’s what I’m doing right now
I think about you all the time
I come up with a million stupid rhymes
So now it’s just me
Putting them on paper
For you to read
And think about later.

I hate giving you something
That is supposed to fill the my place
Because you can’t hear me sing
Or feel my embrace
It reminds me of the chocolates you hate
But I can relate
Because I feel incomplete
When we are not together
Although the thought of you
Makes me light as a feather
Makes my body renewed
You when your full of joy
Makes me feel more like a boy
Than anyone else can
You make me feel better about myself
Better than I actually am
You bring out in me
What I want people to see
You know the pain I hide
And you comfort me inside
So many things I admire in you
I notice all the things you do
I like listening too
So, so many things I admire in you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4ikv7TI87io -- just what i was singing, no correspondence to post.

Todays secret: I had one of those life flashbacks and you were in it. If you dont know what a life flash back is, its when your life "flashes" before your eyes.

Waste of time

Well tongiht i wasted a lot of my time typing out a post and then when i reread it it sounded so stupid that i closed the page. This one is just to let you know that i care about you sooooo much even when you hurt me and that I'm thinking about you. See you tommorow baby

Settling of Scores

[Note:] As the blog is being written, I will be posting the songs that are coming up on my playlist on the right side of the post. These are such great songs! You would definitely find some favorites in here. It will be written like so:

The Starting Line - Island

You should really take your own advice. Sign OUT after you sign IN! Duh... Or else, "things" happen. :) Random unexplainable things happen to your blogging website, as you can see...

Mehehehe.

Alright, hi you non-existent blog readers. It's Hale- the girl this blogger writes about [... used to]. He should tell you all [haha] about himself- doesn't that seem fair? I mean all of his posts are about me, and you'd sort of have to know a bit about the person behind the keyboard to know what kind of opinions and history comes along with his judgment. You know, for justification reasons.

Boys like Girls - Up Against the Wall

Currently, this boy is not talking to me very much- I just came back from a long tiring day at work [yes, my feet ache and my back hurts]. And by "very much", I mean that he hasn't responded to my text message for an entire hour. I'm not entirely sure what happened there... Maybe his phone died- or he did. He's tired this week.

So about the boy... I'm too exhausted to write endlessly in paragraph-form, so I'll make a list of random facts. I have other homework to get to, anyway. I just have to take advantage of this moment. :)

Motion City Soundtrack - Broken Heart

Okay here's my list:

1) He's one of those guys you have to meet once in your lifetime. You have to- because he has so much to teach you through absolutely no words. Well, some I suppose. But he doesn't need to say a word.
2) He's distinctive, extraordinary, and quite individualistic.
3) He contains an engaging, affectionate, beating heart that can only be heard when a devoted ear lays close on his chest.
4) He's almost always warmer than me. Therefore, he makes a great blanket.
5) He likes smiling, laughing, and giggling. Especially when we do it together. However, as warm and welcoming as he is- some of his vivid white teeth are hidden as he makes his way through certain places.

Paramore - When it Rains

6) He has reasons, intricate answers, purpose, as well as blameless intentions.
7) He thinks. Well.
8) His interests and [what seems like] limitless knowledge in motor vehicles and anything of the sort is extremely alluring to me. Especially when he's got black grease wiped on his face and hands.
9) He takes risks, and makes his sacrifices as they come.
10) He enjoys calling himself "a boss".
11) When he doesn't understand something I've said, he smiles and looks away- thinking about what I could have said. He rarely asks me to repeat what I said. I'm usually the one to realize I need to repeat something for him.

Emery - Studying Politics

12) He's on a promising path that he's not completely aware of just yet.
13) Every time I see him, I have to focus on not tripping, because he makes me feel kind of like jello.
14) He makes fun of me if I say "ack-cue-stick" instead of "ah-koo-stick" when I attempt saying "acoustic".
15) When he melts, I do too. When he tells Especially when he me he's melting, I'm practically as melted as fondue.enfolds me with his long arms.
16) He peeks when he kisses me sometimes- just to see if I'm peeking.

Boys like Girls - Learning to Fall
*skip* The Used - Smother Me
*skip* Yellowcard - Only One [acoustic]

17) I usually am- so I catch him. We giggle, then.
18) Sometimes, I feel like I can really see the weight he carries around "on his shoulders"- and I don't think he sees it- or even feels it.
19) He's sensitive, and pays attention to details when he thinks it's best.
20) He's absolutely, without doubt, delightfully lucid. Not entirely eloquent- but well enough for me to grasp.
21) He has one the squishiest noses I've ever touched. Not to mention how incredibly soft his skin is... There's nothing else I'd rather run my hands over. Ever.

The Summer Obsession - I Miss You

*these ones are more about me and "us", but I thought they were worthy of mentioning:*
22) Our connection through music has been the #2 thing driven me towards him- and continues to be the #2 reason why I admire him and connect with him even more than I can explain at this moment.

Paramore - Never Let This Go

23) When he's upset, frustrated, annoyed, down, sad... His emotions flow through me to the very ends of my fingertips. His emotions linger within me until I can get a single smile out of him.
24) One smile, and the world is brought back to its homeostasis.
25) When I hold his hand, I fly to the moon and back. At least twice.

Alright. That's all there is for now. Honestly, in "modernized" words: he's amazing, and beyond me. I appreciate him so much, and I can't get the right words out to explain how thankful I am that I met him- above all, he's a great friend. And that'll always remain- regardless of what happens.

New Found Glory - Hold My Hand

I've really got to get to homework... I'm really tired though so I'm not entirely sure of how I'll get past it. Actually, thinking about *him* will help me through just fine. :)

P.S. [Note for just you:] Mayday Parade is probably one of my top favorite bands, now- thanks for introducing them to me! They're absolutely incredible.

xox,
Hale<3

HEY!

Listen to this while you read and dont kill me ;) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M11SvDtPBhA

I read your most recent post and who ever your talking to must have been either a close friend or very cool headed.. haha its a good point though because i completly agree with you and the qoute sounds like something out of a fairytale.. I read your email too <3 check your email :) Oh and just letting you know today is right up there on my favorite days with azizam, i couldn't have pictured it any better, like if i were to dream up today, it would have been almost identical, except theres no way i could have pictured us doing what we did at target and then at my house. I can't wait to see the pictures Hanna took of us <3 I wish I could stay up all night talking to this screen knowing youll read it sometime tonight (i hope) and knowing i at one time tonight just sat here for like 20 minutes staring at this thinking about how much i like you and how no matter how much time i spend with you im always destroyed when you leave because i know i wont be seeing you for at least 8 hours, or 1 depending if i dream that night. I hope i do tonight because i miss you right now and thank god you sent me those pictures, i sure am curious who took them though :)haha try to guess who took mine! And another thing, I have never seen you look the way you did in my room in my arms tonight when you had your cozy little pajamas on. KILL ME because i can't bear to think about it anymore, my heart is going to have multiple fractures due to over cuteness!! Ouch now my eyes are starting to hurt from looking at this screen >:( but thats okay I'm almost done. I just want you to know that im wearing my footie pajamas while i wrote this and now and forever more ill think of you when i put them on or even see them.. Although, I'm always thinking about you and your smile and your face when you smile and how you are when your happy and your amazing cheeks and everything about you.. O yeah, remember when i said that I think perfection isnt perfect unless its formed by imperfection? well your perfect because of your small imperfections. I'm only going to name one and you are going to think is wierd but remember on Saturday waht you told me and i kindof freaked out at first and was really worried (still am) but ya i think it makes you soo perfect and beautiful. And real and you know what I like to see in womne and i see it in you and i am soooo tahnkful that you tdo certain things for like leaving your makeup off just so i can see your eyes even though you really didn't want to, but you did just for me. It makes me sooooooo attracted top you as if i wasn't already and i know your reading this like omgg joeee but baby im just writing what im thinking and you have probably figured that out by the way im writing.. I won't even read this over or spell check it, so try not to be freaked out by what i think or feel haha but i understand if you do.. Well there you go, that was another piece straight from my head and a couple parts straight from my heart. <3 Ill be txting you all night azizam.

Secret- I wanted to look sooo bad, but you asked me not to so I would never in a million years.. <3

My backround/template colors are based off my mood. so theyll change around from dark colors to light ones back to dark then maybe light for awhile. Ya know

Things I'm beggining to see

Try to interpret this one from its title! JK thats impossible because I'm talking about a couple different ideas. Maybe you guessed them both. If anyone could guess both, its you. K well im talking about 1. I noticed that my page contains two phrases containing "not so" which is pretty rare considering I almost never say that. And 2. I'm begginning to see how amazing you are. and not just like oh yeah I can't belive you got shot, thats amazing! like jaw dropping, blank staring, leg failing, pupil size changing, lack of breath amazement. Now picture all that at the same time. Yikes. If anything were to happen to me I'm sure you could save me though. So I suppose my legs can fail all they want. I started this before we took this ^ picture but i still had to add it because it makes me go crazy here just thinking about it. But I still get to text you which is sooo good. because if I wasnt texting you I would be dying. I dont think people who dont write blogs realize how much time and effort even goes into them until they actually do one themself. Because, I watch you try to describe it sometimes over your blog and sometimes to me and i never understood how much work goes into yours especially. I have time into this one than i do on my homework :) and It's not going to look as remotly good as yours do. And my writing isnt as good. But ya mine are pretty much completly random. Don't you like how this has nothing to do with my title? I can't even say oh but it does and then show you how it does, I'm just going to change the subject. Dammit baby you just teleported me to mexico again... How can i save you from fat bastard when im here? I have enough problems trying to get back across the border.. Thank god i look like the whitest person alive.
Feel like analyzing some lyrics? Good cause I do too. Red Sky by Thrice

I know what lies beneath, I've seen the flash of teeth.
Conspiring with the reef to sink our ship.
The wind's a cheating wife, her tongue a thirsty knife.
And she could take your life with one good kiss.

Can you see the sky turn red?
As morning's light breaks over me,
Know tonight we'll make our bed
at the bottom of the sea.

I know the ocean speaks, I've heard her call to me.
And smiling in my dreams she whispers this
(The stars retreat behind their veil.
The clouds are clinging to your sail.
The storm is coming can you see?)

Can you see the sky turn red?
As morning's light breaks over me,
Know tonight we'll make our bed
at the bottom of the sea.

Look and see the sky turn red.
Like blood it covers over me.
And soon the sea shall give up her dead.
We'll raise an empire from the bottom of the sea



The first stanza I can actually picture a dark night with almost no cloud cover in the moonlit sky. I see a ship full of strong but helpless men trying to navigate through the ocean. The man narrating somehow knows what awaits them beneath the surface and realizes that they can't do anything about it. He tells nobody on the ship. So the reef tears into their ship with the help of the crisp but slow breeze. As soon as they touch the water they are as good as dead whether they know it or not. The sea had to let one live though, to tell the tale. But the sea will eventually take him also, and the survivor knows it. To escape the sea would be to destroy it and something as great as this sea cannot be destroyed. So eventually he succumbs to the seas touch and lays to rest with his ship mates at its depths. They expect to someday be released from beneath but nobody knows if they ever were.

Now interpretationssss
I suppose I could see a boy and a girl trying to be seperated and destroyed by somebody else, but I would rather do something else. A person who has been alive for about 20 years but who has more life experience than most sees how many things conspire against us. This person sees how seperatly these things seem meaningless but combining them can have a disasterous effect. This person knows that eventually every person will face the underlying traps and holes dug to capture the innocent lives. This person has been warned of everything including his failure to navigate around the pitfalls and snares placed for him, but destiny isn't a thing to outrun. Giving up after being caught, the person hopes for him and everyone like him to be released. The underlying traps, holes, pitfalls and snares were placed by a powerful woman that he once knew and to punish him for something he did, she trapped him and everone like him, but he knows that one day he will be forgiven and released. By the last stanza, he is much older than in the first stanza but still has all the same regrets.

Now you try. what do you think? either analyze this one or pick a different song to analyze and sometime lemme see what you did.

Today's secret: I'm not going to post this today
Today's secret #2: I lied

Spectrum Security

This is more of a securirty bash due to a recent run-in. I'm just going to talk shit on them and what kind of people they are. So you want to be a mall cop do ya? your training will consist of the most difficult tasks you have ever attempted to accomplish. Take this pen, sign here, sign here, initial and date. Alright here's your plastic badge and a belt with pockets so you can carry a radio and a flashlight so you all can talk to each other. Also, here's a nightstick but it's just for looks, if you use it you could be arrested by a real police officer. Well your just about set. Oh yeah, umm it's securtiy tradition to be a complete stickler, so if you get an opportunity to hassle somebody dont be afraid to. Alright go out in your Toyota highlander and try to look official.

Play this in another window while you read- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iISyPz5XRyI



Mall cop- "My name is Erin and I am a security officer at the Irvine Spectrum Center"
Camera guy- "What does a typical Saturday night look like for you Erin?"
Mall cop- "Well I usually encounter about 1-2 perpentrators at least every Saturday. They can be anywhere from age 12 to 17. Why don't you come along with us tonight maybe well see some action."

later that night

Camera guy- "hm tonights pretty slow eh?"

Mall cop- "oh no I got 2 cars towed and warned a man who was double parking of the consequenses, you must have missed it."

Camera guy- "well its getting late there's really nobody left here, im going to go home, alri-" (loud frantic radio chatter)
"Calling other mall cop, calling other mall cop, over! I,ve got two juviniles suspects having sex in the backseat of a honda civic, i saw her boob! requesting back up immediatly repeat immediatly, this kid looks pissed off"

Mall cop- "holy shit Marks life is on the line! get in the highlander!"

(speeds towards location but still obeying stop signs and speed limits)
(arrives to a VERY nervous and sweaty Mark holding kids at flashlight-point)

Erin-"are you getting this?! are you getting this?!"

Camera guy-"um yeah"

Erin-"FREEZE scumbag!step the fuck away from that car!"

Mark- "I got the girl, I got the girl!"

Erin- "If you 2 dont cooperate ill be forced to call the police"

Erin-"Now don't lie to me, what were you doing in the back of that car?"

Joe- "We were just kissing sir"

Erin- "I SAID DON'T FUCKING LIE TO ME!!"

Erin- "AND WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU SITTING DOWN? GET THE FUCK UP"

Hale- "(confused) umm ok jeeze"

Mark- "Now you tell me what were you doing in the back of that car?"

Hale- "We were just kissing"

Mark- "LOOK I SAW SOMETHING DONT FUCKING LIE TO ME! THIS ISN'T A GAME"

Erin- "Look were going to have to call your parents and let them know of this occurance"

Erin- (on phone) "yes we caught your daughter and her bf having sexual intercourse in the backseat of her car, i recommend a hiv/aids test."

Joe/Hale- "omfg"

Erin- "alright you two have a safe trip home now"

Joe/Hale- >:[

Mark to Erin- "oh my god did you see that?! did you see that?! I think i saw her boob!"

Erin to camera guy- "Yeah, its a thankless job but somebody has to do it. There are so many bad characters in this part of Irvine, I'm just thankful there's two of us here to protect and preserve the integrety of his mall."

Camera guy- "ok shut the fuck up, you did nothing but ruin peoples halloween and hassle two kids. If this tape was to be aired, people would think it was a joke. You two are pathetic."

4 weeks later: Joe- "hey hale, I got my test back but.. it came back positive, they say i have H.I.V. and apparently theres no cure. They say the more I'm around you the worse it gets. But strangly i feel all warm inside all the time. :)" wanna know a secret? You are the only person i would ever want in my veins and I'm glad youre in them <3

My first post

Well you wanted to see how mine would be set up! Here you go cutie. Some info about this blog-- every post is dedicated to you and every post will in some way relate back to you. Hopefully it will save you on the days that could have been better or at least help. And just a little secret for you-I'm humming right now. every post ill pick a song for you to listen to and try to share a secret with you no matter how stupid it is haha. Also I have no idea when I'm going to tell you I made this, maybe ill tell you right now, maybe in a couple of weeks. I'm going to go now and write something of value for you. <3

this is what i was humming

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fF2m809mV_k

heres lyrics-

http://artists.letssingit.com/dance-gavin-dance-lyrics-power-to-the-people-lxndx8c